hiatus

I took nearly two months off from being good. It is really hard to be good from my birthday (mid October) to the end of the year. Why you may ask? Here is why:

Mid Oct. - my birthday
Oct. 31st - Halloween
Nov. 2? - Thanksgiving
Dec. 25 - Christmas

Now you may think that there is a lot of time in bewteen those days, but tradition fills those days with extra Halloween candy (I was actually better this year), pumpkin bread, pumpkin bread and more pumpkin bread, and all the yummy cookies that Christmas requires me to spend hours making in the kitchen (this year was 15 dozen).

Now do you see what my problem is?

Oh, and to top things all off, right after my birthday, we all got swine flu. It was pathtic.

Now that 2009 is closing, I am happy to say that I met my first goal! I actually weighed 193 on my 30th birthday. I was so excited!

Unfortunately, because I stopped exercising regularly, I gained back 2 pounds by the time we left for our Christmas vacation. I have a new goal in mind and tomorrow is a new day. We shall see how I do in 2010!

oh yeah

Today as I was washing some dishes, my husband looked at my backside and said, "I can really tell that your tush is getting smaller."

That made me feel so good.

sick

I was all geared up to go last week and then I got sick. My energy was completely gone and I had a hard time breathing through my nose. I am happy to say I am feeling better today, so back to walking the track tonight!

again

I'm going back on track yet again.

Last week was horrible and I have no excuses, other than I was lazy and depressed.

However, when I stepped on the scale this morning, it read 199!

Let's hope I can keep that up, because seeing a number less than 200 is making me feel so good.

so sad

Yesterday I was pathetic. I reverted back to my old eating habits, which weren't good at all. I was pretty bad on Monday too, but not as bad as I was yesterday. I still want to lose weight, I was just being lazy.

My birthday is in 29 days and if I want to make my goal I still have 5 pounds to go. I can't seem to get below 200 pounds and it is depressing me by far. That is why I regressed. I have to do this. I want to be healthier and I want to look better.

I am mad at myself and I need to change that.

trying something new

On one of my videos, a challenge is issued. The challenge is to try the video for 10 straight days. Yesterday was day 3. I am actually not going to do 12 days and skip Sunday. We will see how well this works.

over heated

Last night as I was doing my workout I overheated. I got 2 of the 4 miles done before I had to stop. I was pouring sweat and very exhausted. Why?

PMS. De-tox from allergy meds. Headache (luckily it did NOT turn into a migraine).

Yesterday was a bad day.

Hopefully today will be better.

jumping up and down

See that title up there? That is exactly what I was doing today in the middle of Wal-Mart.

I was jumping up and down for joy because I tried on a size LARGE and it fit!

I have been an XL for so long and was ecstatic to be in a different size. Granted, it was a sweater. But you want to know something? I really don't care. IT WAS A SMALLER SIZE!!!

another plateau

I HATE plateaus. I actually went back up a couple pounds. I can't believe how much weight can fluctuate throughout the day. I think I need to stay away from the scale for about a week or so. I've become addicted to stepping on that thing to see if I've lost any weight. And I get mad when I haven't. I've been bad in the past week and I'll be bad again on Thursday when I have Girl's Night Out. Food is good, but I don't need to eat everything I want to. I am grrrrrring at myself lately and I'm not happy.

goal

I've almost hit my first goal! When I stepped on the scale I weighed 200 pounds and I won't be 30 for two months (minus five days). I was so excited that I called my husband into the kitchen and he was excited with me. So cool.

Am I going to keep it up? HECK YES!!!!

Now I have to set another goal. That is probably the hardest part.

do it anyway

Last night I hurt my back picking up my youngest and taking him to the stairs. I decided I wasn't going to work out. Bad idea. After awhile I got over the pain and worked out anyway. Good idea. My back felt so much better after working out. I took it easy and did some resistance bands and I felt good about it at the end.

not liking it...

My sweet tooth ended last night. I tried my homemade blueberry cheesecake and I liked it, but I didn't want it. There must be something wrong with me. Or there could be something right.

too much

I can't keep away from sweet things this week. It must be that time of the month soon. Sometimes being a girl can be a pain.

plateau

Last week I was stuck on a plateau. Those things are horrible when you are trying to loose weight. I know that when you are really trying to loose weight, muscle is built up and that adds weight. I might not have lost any weight, but I did loose inches and that matters too.

Now that it is a new week, I am happy to say that I am off of my plateau and going down again.

Last night, in addition to doing my regular exercise, I washed a bunch of dishes while dancing to disco and I mopped the floor. Let me tell you that I was sweating up a storm by the time I finished all my chores and my exercising. My husband even said something about it. Ew, gross.

enjoyment

I never thought I would enjoy exercising as much as I do. I hope I can keep up the enjoyment that I get as I continue working out.

Written hours later:

Okay, so I don't enjoy the Jogging at Home nearly as much. But it was my first time. My calves are so stinkin' tight that they hurt. They better look good soon. Good grief. I will not let the pain get the better of me.

And do you want to know why?

I enjoy watching the little needle on the scale going down. Slowly, but it's still going down.

back on track

Last week was crazy. I got sick and then spent some time with my son who was sick enough to be admitted into the hospital.

This week I am right back where I need to be and it feels good.

fruits

I love fresh fruit. However, I love it even more when it is turned into something yummy, like cobbler.

I've bought cherries recently because they were less than a dollar a pound and they looked so good. I went to town and made cherry turnovers and a cherry cobbler.

Now I can't stop eating them.

choices

It is really hard when you have a choice between two things that are good for you.

Last night my mom and I decided to go see Harry Potter. The show started at 8:25. The kids went to bed later than usual so I only had a half hour before we had to leave for the theater.

I had two choices: get the dishes done or exercise.

Since my tummy still felt full from the wonderful Mexican food we had for dinner, I chose to do the dishes.

Yes, I know, I am very odd.

However, I did not eat anything at the theater and I did enjoy the movie.

back to work

I got home from vacation today and I'm already back at sweating up a storm. I enjoyed my little break, but I did get a little bit of exercising done. Just not enough.

vacation

It's my turn to go on vacation. There is a pool there, so maybe that might count for exercising or maybe I'll take advantage of the gym at the resort. We shall see.

week four

As I spend more and more time exercising, it becomes easier to want to do it. However, my calves are still screaming in pain during some portion of doing the different stretches and movements. Why just my calves? Why not my arms? Why not my thighs?

I don't understand how bodies work. I just know that they do, and I am grateful for it.

impatient

I forgot that when you try to do things the right way it is actually harder to do. I am really trying to do this weight loss thing the right way. I'm eating smaller portions, cutting back on fats and sweets and getting exercise in daily.

I should be happy that I've lost some weight. I really should be. But the stinking needle on the scale loves to jump around. First I've lost 5 pounds, then it's only 2 and then it drops down 10 pounds and goes back to only being 4 pounds different than my original weight.

I feel like a yo-yo.

Last night I stepped on the scale I weighed 8 pounds less than I did exactly 3 weeks ago. I know that the way I am doing things is healthy because that is less than 3 pounds per week. I plan on continuing.

I just want to see results faster. Like I said, I am impatient.

cream soda

It has been so long since I have seen a can of Cream Soda that didn't have caffeine in it. Mug's now has Cream Soda and when my son picked up a can today at the Farmer's Market, I had to have some. I took three swallows and that was it.

The key is moderation. I am learning this slowly.

Besides, last night I did 100 crunches again.

balance ball

I have had a balance ball for a few years now. I used it every other day after my oldest was born. I love stretching around the ball.

I went to inflate my ball the other day and found that it was riddled with leaks. So I bought another ball. Last night I used my ball and it was a good thing because my back was hurting so bad. I loved being able to stretch and have minimal impact on my joints. I did realize that the ball might not be the best way to loose weight, but it is a great workout when I want the minimal impact on days that I am hurting.

I hope that made sense.

two weeks

I just finished my second week of exercising. I am pleased with what I have accomplished so far. Tonight I did resistance again and silly me. I should have looked the other night to see how long the session was. It was actually over when I ended up turning it off after getting all those phone calls from my husband. I owe him an apology. I also decided to do a set of crunches after finishing the resistance session. I did 100 of them and boy do I hurt! I know it will pay off though because I have already lost 1 1/2 inches around my waist! I know it's not much, but it's a start.

resistance

I tried the resistance band that came with one of my DVDs for the first time on Wednesday night. I had to quit early for a couple of reasons.

The first was because my darling dear sweet husband, who was out doing missionary work, called me 6 or 7 times to ask me to look up directions on Google. That wouldn't have been too bad, but our computer was acting dinosaur slow due to my husband scanning documents all day.

The second reason was because the resistance band kicked my behind so bad I was sore. I can't believe how out of shape some areas of my body are. Wait, who am I kidding? My whole body is out of shape. Well, my fingers might not be. They get plenty of exercise due to typing blogs out all the time.

I'll try the resistance band again tonight and see how I do.

ice cream

Last night during my workout, my husband decided he wanted some ice cream. He then had the nerve to ask me if I wanted any.

Me? Want ice cream? Well, duh. I almost always want ice cream.

I told him no, but then I changed my mind. I had ONE little bite of peach pie ice cream. And then I wanted more.

But I said no. I went to bed a couple of hours later with my tummy rumbling and me still wanting ice cream.

*sigh*

chocolate

It seems I have a weak spot. It would be in the form of chocolate. That huge bar I got the other night was calling me today. And so I caved. But I didn't cave very far. I had less than a serving and it wasn't all at once. That would be good, right? I hope so.

Some people are able to cut sugar from their diet. They switch to Splenda or some other substitute sugar and that seems to help. Me? I can't. I am allergic to artificial sweeteners BIG TIME!!! Instant migraines. I can also taste the fakeness, which is completely unappealing. So I just have to watch how much sugar I take in. I added a teaspoon of sugar to dinner (sweet and sour chicken from scratch). I haven't had juice all week.

I am trying to lose. And tomorrow is my day of rest. I am not planning on going crazy with what I can eat. Especially since my husband wants beans for dinner. Speaking of which, it is time to go soak some beans.

ouch

Last night I ate too much dinner. I even felt full and I kept eating more. Why? Because it was really yummy and that should not be an excuse. When you are full, you should stop eating. That is the rule. A rule which I clearly broke for the first time all week.

I paid big time for eating too much. My stomach hurt me something awful and I ended up with painful gas all night. It hurt so much that I couldn't even exercise. And I feel really bad about that. I am grateful for Gas-X because this morning I feel much better. Next time I won't eat as much.

day four

It is really hard to go hang out with friends when there is food involved. This happened not once, but twice today. I have a really great group of friends and we have a Girl's Night Out once a month.

Today there was pizza. So I had two small slices of veggie pizza with no cheese (instead of sausage and olive, one of my favorites) and a glass of 1% milk instead of a rootbeer float (which I love!).

I left the group early so I could go to a baby shower for a friend I hadn't seen for over a year. I had one small bite of cake. I also won a prize because of my "sheer genius" for word games. The prize? A huge bar of chocolate, a Symphony bar with toffee and almonds to be exact.

This world is so not fair.

day two

My sweet husband bought my french fries today. I think he felt guilty because I was helping him out by taking his car down to get his tires fixed.

I ate them.

And do you want to know something?

I didn't enjoy them.

I usually like french fries. Maybe it has something to do with all this water I've been drinking.

to good health

I didn't lose much weight after having my youngest. He didn't like to nurse, which is how I lost weight with my other two children. Since then I have gained more weight and I'm sick of it.

My husband is worried about me and so am I.

I have made a conscience decision to be smarter about how I eat and I am going to exercise.

Wish me luck!